Oh and because I just changed my last name one of my teachers doesn't know who I am, so right now I have a failing grade in that class too. That one should get fixed.
I won't be able to graduate in May 2011. I will have to take summer classes. Maybe they will let me walk in May. How terrifically disappointing.
Leo is out of the hospital. Corinne took him up to her dad's, he used to be a vet tech. I haven't seen him yet.
I have some mixed feelings about him coming home. I am still pretty traumatized. I'm sure he is too.
It sounds stupid that something like this could be so paralyzing to me. I seriously think I have some PTSD. I need to call my prescriber and get some more Ativan. I am freaking out.
This semester was really really hard. I'm so upset with myself for being such a disappointment. School was supposed to be different this time. I was going to do well and focus. I did do well for a while. My GPA is going to plummet. I probably wont go to grad school. I don't think I will be able to get in anywhere.
I want to cry, but I am in "numb" phase right now. I will probably bawl in about 30 minutes. My emotions are still all screwed up.
This changes everything. I will probably end up working in retail for the rest of my life instead of doing what I love.
My stomach hurts.
I guess blue eyes really are inauspicious to the Ottomans.
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